When everything good happens in my life, it is already confirmed that it will vanish one day. I cannot stop thinking about if no one on SF want to continue talking with me, that's the "one day" the good things vanish again.
The truth is, I don't know what to do. The time is flowing and every hour or half, another place of people full of happiness for the coming of the new year begin to mark the beginning of 2020...but new year isn't something really deserve to observe, at least for me now. To protect maybe privacy I don't want to tell the whole story here. New year, sometimes, make those melancholic and kind people feel sad....
I know what I need to accept because no good things is absolutely good, and it will disappear, it would be better if nothing happens ever, because those so fucking beautiful memories are always reminding me that good period is already passed. And I don't want to take on.
So that's always easy to say, I wish I never existed here, in this world, and that seems everything can lose, because future is obviously rough. But, somehow, I don't want to choose suicide right now. I want to wait and if everything will be just maybe only a bit bit better when something be back, my most important one? or maybe I'm just in my dreams.
Not having a foggiest idea of what I want to say...I don't know if someone else can understand me totally but maybe it's impossible. SF please tell me you'll still help me and be the place I belong to.
The truth is, I don't know what to do. The time is flowing and every hour or half, another place of people full of happiness for the coming of the new year begin to mark the beginning of 2020...but new year isn't something really deserve to observe, at least for me now. To protect maybe privacy I don't want to tell the whole story here. New year, sometimes, make those melancholic and kind people feel sad....
I know what I need to accept because no good things is absolutely good, and it will disappear, it would be better if nothing happens ever, because those so fucking beautiful memories are always reminding me that good period is already passed. And I don't want to take on.
So that's always easy to say, I wish I never existed here, in this world, and that seems everything can lose, because future is obviously rough. But, somehow, I don't want to choose suicide right now. I want to wait and if everything will be just maybe only a bit bit better when something be back, my most important one? or maybe I'm just in my dreams.
Not having a foggiest idea of what I want to say...I don't know if someone else can understand me totally but maybe it's impossible. SF please tell me you'll still help me and be the place I belong to.
