im not ok, im thinking of trying another attempt. today we played dodge ball in gym, its like i wasnt even there everyone was out and no one gave a fuck to throw a ball at me, in study hall my friend told me that no one wants or needs me around i told him i know u dont haffta tell me. i came home and tried to cut my boob. i have no reason to keep fighting in this world i just wanna give up. i feel so invisable and alone. things at home arent ok, family has gone poor and now that they need money they are forcing me to get a job for the summer, but when i wanted to just so i could have my own money i cant. i told this freshman girl off cuz she yelled at me cuz my music was too loud and she didnt like it so i told her to go fuck herself and to get use to it. she hit me when she got off the bus and i flattened her to the floor twisting her arm back until the bus driver yelled at me.