Hello.
I kind of need advice on this.
You see I work in a company far from home but I take public transportation to and from the company as it is the most cost efficient arrangement. The drawback is I am only home for dinner and sleeping. The work is very stressful and the schedule has me working 6 days a week with my day off being laundry day. This leaves me no time to see my friends.
Recently I resigned and am waiting for my last day in the company to pass then I can start in my new company.
However, all of the plans I had for my turnover period has been wrecked. This left me with so much stress that none of coworkers seem to care.
I was at my limit until I was scolded by one of our sales officers for something that I did not do. He apologized a few minutes later for it but that event through off the edge and just broke down and cried at my desk.
After that, every thing seemed to change from then. My coworkers who knew I had a breakdown are now more conscious with helping me in my work but I'm still left to handle with the management who is still as demanding as ever. My family seems to be more strict than before; treating me more of a child than they did before. They keep telling me to keep my emotions in check and that I should learn to say "no" and defend myself in work.
Somehow it only makes me sadder and angrier at others and myself when I hear that. I don't refuse work because it makes me feel needed. I try not to ask for help as I think it makes me a burden to others and I have to prove myself that I can do things on my own. However, it does increase the stress load I already have.
Now I don't feel like doing much, not going to work, don't smile as much. I just feel lonely like no one gets what I just went through. Normally during these times, I think about suicide as well but am really scared of it.
I'm asking for advice on how to recover from this state.
I kind of need advice on this.
You see I work in a company far from home but I take public transportation to and from the company as it is the most cost efficient arrangement. The drawback is I am only home for dinner and sleeping. The work is very stressful and the schedule has me working 6 days a week with my day off being laundry day. This leaves me no time to see my friends.
Recently I resigned and am waiting for my last day in the company to pass then I can start in my new company.
However, all of the plans I had for my turnover period has been wrecked. This left me with so much stress that none of coworkers seem to care.
I was at my limit until I was scolded by one of our sales officers for something that I did not do. He apologized a few minutes later for it but that event through off the edge and just broke down and cried at my desk.
After that, every thing seemed to change from then. My coworkers who knew I had a breakdown are now more conscious with helping me in my work but I'm still left to handle with the management who is still as demanding as ever. My family seems to be more strict than before; treating me more of a child than they did before. They keep telling me to keep my emotions in check and that I should learn to say "no" and defend myself in work.
Somehow it only makes me sadder and angrier at others and myself when I hear that. I don't refuse work because it makes me feel needed. I try not to ask for help as I think it makes me a burden to others and I have to prove myself that I can do things on my own. However, it does increase the stress load I already have.
Now I don't feel like doing much, not going to work, don't smile as much. I just feel lonely like no one gets what I just went through. Normally during these times, I think about suicide as well but am really scared of it.
I'm asking for advice on how to recover from this state.