I have that. it is a congenital disease and i have the one that affects the cervical spine. I jist had surgery to help alleviate constant pain and numbness and tingling in my left arm, but i am still in pain and i am being woken up by it and kept awake. My partner is not good at being supportive about the whole thing. It really sucks to decline so drastically in my early 30s. I was a healthy person that spent 8 hrs a week in the gym and worked 45 hours a week. Now it hurts if i sweep up a mess I made or try to wash some plates. It is hard to see a point to life for me. I went to a prestigious university for musical performance bit i cant even play my instrument now either. I just feel worthless and sad. If i tell my partner even a light version of how i feel the tell me they "cant take this right now" and also they separately complain about how no one is helping them and how messy we make ojr house (referring to me and my child). I know that what she says is pretty much entirely out of line especially stuff like the latter... I just want my child to have as stable a childhood as possible. It makes me 10xs sadder that i cant do anything with my child, but i probably engage with them more than my partner. Like TAKE THIS KID TO THE PARK OR SOMETHING. My partner has anxiety issues but it really feels like we are failing my child and that compounds my situation a TON and i have NO CLUE how i can resolve any of that. Sorry kind of a strange combination but my entire life is upside down because of my KFS... i have trouble just carrying on each day.
