Well it's a funny old world we live in. Told this and That by so many people we begin to believe snippets that filter their way through the mouths of people telling us they care...
I'm so far a head of my self it's like villains monologue.
I'll start at the beging. I was born like so many children to parents. two of them one male and one female I grew up for a time in Cambridge had a few friends liked school was one of those kids with rosey cheeks... but and you guessed it things changed. I moved off to the land of cheshire where my accent alone offered the bullies fresh reasons to find a new punch bag. THis of course went on for years slowly eroding my faith in humanity or what ever faith i had scrounged off the back of a wheatabix packet at least. until lo my life got better. Yes I know it's the title and I am well with in my right to shoot from begining of life to 15 if i so choose, think "it's my story and i'll fly if i want to".
Things did get better, I had a few friends mostly the other kids the bullies stopped punching to take a few throws at me gratefull as they were we gotalong. I even got a girlfriend. Fiona not an oilpainting but a vision the greats could never imortalise. Things werent good. Still bullied no money and i really hated school but i had found my upside. so ladies and gentle men of the press life does change... more i hear you cry oh well I suppose i can indulge you a little more you adoring readers you.
I did it I fainaly did it! that was my cry when i scrapped my Alevels to a shape where I could go to uni. I mean I had done it. Girl who i was planning on proposing to at this point and my ticket out of the hell hole cheshire. Lincoln bound i started my media production course. THe parties.... that i read about were wonderfull never got invited but lets face it this is a life gets better stroy not a zero to hero flic.
more... you hungry beasts... wait... that's it. I mean of course i grew older i mean don't we all but that was really it...FIona Died in a car accident. I didn't even get to her in time to say good bye. THe seperation of us two when we went to Uni tore us both apart the last 6 months were miserable for both of. Mind you i still had a pulse but lets face it she beat me there by a mile. The friends left just vanished never returning calls or letters. didn't even come to the funeral. Her family hated me so i lost her like hse never existed... but what HO university well i threw my self whole heartedly into it not wasting a moment. My second year now and the hard work was paying off. I was set to get a First for my third year. no one knew me of course family gone now (that one i will keep a seceret i mean who knows if i can pull a sequel to this) I was alone with my hollow victory. But hey a goal is a goal right... until of course you get testicuar cancer in the second half of your third year. that does put a crimp on things. But i went back I mean hey whats a testical when your off to get a degree right... and you know what I was all set until i was beaten and left for dead by thugs just out to inflict pain. well you only get two tries. i got my certificate of higher education the perverbual wooden spoon of achievments and went home. alone of course
Fell in love again. Oh she was so beatiful. Oh crap i went and used past tense totally gave the game away well yeah you guessed it she's gone. She was raped and wouldn't let me any where near her. no man can even talk to her now i hear she's so bad. Greatest love of my life after Fiona and that wasn't a peach at the end anyway. Oh but i hooked up oh yes. very specail lady.
I can't remember her name though. Drugs do that see she slipped me something used me in ways i'm sure the internet knows and left me at the side of the road. Fun huh.
BUT wait theres more! bankrupcy lungcancer and am totally alone..
but then a light a shinning beacon in the dark.. no wait that's Suicide forum and we all know that helps right? wrong. For the first time in years i have somoen to talk to some people i might trust even a woman who seems to be interested in me and Then some little 16 year old who loves to cause trouble has be booted off because the girl who likes me tells him she likes him to and well being 16 he thinks he has the right to do what he pleases. and i get barred. and you guessed it there is more the litle kid who had me kicked off actually mocked my fiances death causing me to try and kill my self and he wasn't banned.
But I am. SO life gets better folks ... because it will end. and you are so right in guessing I wont be here long enough to read the comments you leave..
Don't trust SF lets face it it's run by crazy people?
Take care or don't it's your choice
I know it was mine
John
I'm so far a head of my self it's like villains monologue.
I'll start at the beging. I was born like so many children to parents. two of them one male and one female I grew up for a time in Cambridge had a few friends liked school was one of those kids with rosey cheeks... but and you guessed it things changed. I moved off to the land of cheshire where my accent alone offered the bullies fresh reasons to find a new punch bag. THis of course went on for years slowly eroding my faith in humanity or what ever faith i had scrounged off the back of a wheatabix packet at least. until lo my life got better. Yes I know it's the title and I am well with in my right to shoot from begining of life to 15 if i so choose, think "it's my story and i'll fly if i want to".
Things did get better, I had a few friends mostly the other kids the bullies stopped punching to take a few throws at me gratefull as they were we gotalong. I even got a girlfriend. Fiona not an oilpainting but a vision the greats could never imortalise. Things werent good. Still bullied no money and i really hated school but i had found my upside. so ladies and gentle men of the press life does change... more i hear you cry oh well I suppose i can indulge you a little more you adoring readers you.
I did it I fainaly did it! that was my cry when i scrapped my Alevels to a shape where I could go to uni. I mean I had done it. Girl who i was planning on proposing to at this point and my ticket out of the hell hole cheshire. Lincoln bound i started my media production course. THe parties.... that i read about were wonderfull never got invited but lets face it this is a life gets better stroy not a zero to hero flic.
more... you hungry beasts... wait... that's it. I mean of course i grew older i mean don't we all but that was really it...FIona Died in a car accident. I didn't even get to her in time to say good bye. THe seperation of us two when we went to Uni tore us both apart the last 6 months were miserable for both of. Mind you i still had a pulse but lets face it she beat me there by a mile. The friends left just vanished never returning calls or letters. didn't even come to the funeral. Her family hated me so i lost her like hse never existed... but what HO university well i threw my self whole heartedly into it not wasting a moment. My second year now and the hard work was paying off. I was set to get a First for my third year. no one knew me of course family gone now (that one i will keep a seceret i mean who knows if i can pull a sequel to this) I was alone with my hollow victory. But hey a goal is a goal right... until of course you get testicuar cancer in the second half of your third year. that does put a crimp on things. But i went back I mean hey whats a testical when your off to get a degree right... and you know what I was all set until i was beaten and left for dead by thugs just out to inflict pain. well you only get two tries. i got my certificate of higher education the perverbual wooden spoon of achievments and went home. alone of course
Fell in love again. Oh she was so beatiful. Oh crap i went and used past tense totally gave the game away well yeah you guessed it she's gone. She was raped and wouldn't let me any where near her. no man can even talk to her now i hear she's so bad. Greatest love of my life after Fiona and that wasn't a peach at the end anyway. Oh but i hooked up oh yes. very specail lady.
I can't remember her name though. Drugs do that see she slipped me something used me in ways i'm sure the internet knows and left me at the side of the road. Fun huh.
BUT wait theres more! bankrupcy lungcancer and am totally alone..
but then a light a shinning beacon in the dark.. no wait that's Suicide forum and we all know that helps right? wrong. For the first time in years i have somoen to talk to some people i might trust even a woman who seems to be interested in me and Then some little 16 year old who loves to cause trouble has be booted off because the girl who likes me tells him she likes him to and well being 16 he thinks he has the right to do what he pleases. and i get barred. and you guessed it there is more the litle kid who had me kicked off actually mocked my fiances death causing me to try and kill my self and he wasn't banned.
But I am. SO life gets better folks ... because it will end. and you are so right in guessing I wont be here long enough to read the comments you leave..
Don't trust SF lets face it it's run by crazy people?
Take care or don't it's your choice
I know it was mine
John
I really really wish you all the best and I am still here if you ever decide to talk with me again. 
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