I've been going through alot over the last year. I have a son that is physically and abusive towards me, yet it seems like everyone is making it out to be my fault that he does these things. My now ex boyfriend has been emotionally abusive as well (keeps breaking up with me and then coming back saying he's going to change, calling me names, lying to my face) and he keeps coming back in my life and I keep going back, which I know is stupid but I'm looking for something "normal" to keep myself grounded. I think I'm going to lose my job on top of everything and I don't know what to do about any of it! I've been going to see a counselor, and it's nice to talk to someone for an hour, but once I leave... It all comes right back. Ive tried to end it all, but it never works or I can't muster the courage to do some things. I'm in constant pain and I just want to runaway from all of it but I can't because I have responsibilities, but at the same time I'm tired of feeling anything at this point.