Lost my job today. Can't keep doing this.

[MinnBiker]

There had been bullying against me on this job from day one, but I stayed because I was so desperate for commercial health insurance. The bully was finally fired due to me speaking up .... but then came the efforts to get rid of me. The final reasons they came up with to fire me were ludicrous. But the real problem for me is that I cannot face more interviews. My field went contract, and I constantly have to search for work. I am totally burned out on job hunting.

The way the company lied to fire me triggered my PTSD horribly. As I review my life I am hard pressed to think of a time when people were NOT out to get me or turning on me. I know it sounds paranoid, but I feel like I've been trying for 50+ years, and I now have enough evidence to show there really is no place for me in this world. And if I can't work OR draw disability.... I end up feeling suicidal EVERY DAY. I honestly do not know what to do next.

 

[Darkorinth]

That sounds very frustrating. Since you are currently unemployed there may be organizations that can help you. Have you ever gotten professional help or documentation of you PTSD?

It can definitely feel like the world doesn't have a place for you, because for most people it doesn't. Most people have to make their own place in the world rather than be handed it. Those that are handed a lace it's usually because someone else made it for them, and it rarely turns out well.

Whatever your status in the world this is a safe place you can come with whatever you need to say. We're always here to listen.

 

[MinnBiker]

Make my own place in the world? I don't think I'm an entrepreneur or someone in the position to start my own business.

I've been under therapy for PTSD for 16 years.

 

[dugga]

Hi @MinnBiker - sorry about your job. I'm in the same situation, I've been bullied in my job for years and now I'm having to go to court to prove it as the organisation refuses to accept fault even though they have a duty of care to their employees and I have enough evidence to have them found guilty and prosecuted. I can understand how you feel, the harder I try the further people have to push me down. Have you thought about a career change - maybe going off in a completely different direction? There is a place for you in the world, I'm certain of that. Take care.

 

[Darkorinth]

Making your own place in the world does not mean having your own business. Things like a family, a job, etc. are more a part if it. Most people make a place for themselves without owning their own business. Sorry if I seem like I'm trying to put you down, I'm not. I was just trying to offer another way to look at the situation. You decide if it's useful to you or not.

Having PTSD for that long must wear away at you. As for documentation, even though it's been treated that doesn't mean it's formally documented. A lot of organizations have specific ways and forms to fill out. Maybe your therapist knows how to start getting disability ir similar help.