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Major Depressive Disorder

Lady Wolfshead

Shooting for the stars
#1
Anyone else here with MDD? I've been through four severe depressions, and live with moderate depression from day to day. After the death of my best friend, I've really been struggling again. I have my husband, but he's not interested in talking about depression much - he has his own issues.

I do manage to work part-time, and I write fiction stories.

Please introduce yourself if you have MDD
 

Aurelia

Daylight, like she.
#2
I was technically diagnosed with it, but that was a pretty long time ago. I'm not sure if I would still fit the criteria or not. I do still feel depressed a lot of the time though, so I can relate.
 

wemo

time-traveler
#4
I have MDD. I didn’t find out until recently when I did a cognitive psych eval to see if I had any issues from the brain damage I have from having had tumors zapped and two brain surgeries. But I’ve had severe depression on and off since my late teens. I’m a channel and author but I can only work a few hours a day. Depression affects me frequently. Yay.
 

Petal

SF dreamer
Staff member
Safety & Support
SF Supporter
#5
Hiya,I was diagnosed with MDD many years ago, I was on a lot of different types of anti-depressants until I finally found the right one for me which was Mirtazapine,I was on it a few years, I found it did wonders for me and after some time and major improvements my diagnosis of MDD was taken off my file. That proves you can beat it and can get through this difficult time, it can be frustrating trying so many anti depressants but it will be worth it in the long run. I do hope you find one that helps as much as my one did, best wishes :)
 

Laura79

Well-Known Member
#7
I have major depressive disorder. I work full time but it causes me too miss work more than I should. I’m on medication but still feel depressed most days. Every day is a struggle. Mornings are the worst. I just want to stay in bed all day but have to really force myself to get up and get around.
 
#8
I have MDD also since age 22. It really rears it’s ugly head once or twice per year and lasts fri 3-5 weeks each time. This has been going on for around 30 years. I’ve found ways to get past it. What I have been using for the past 10 years are flower essences. At least for me they have an extraordinary effect so that barring the one or two bouts of MDD which come without cause, I’m quite happy with my life.
 

Lady Wolfshead

Shooting for the stars
#9
I have major depressive disorder. I work full time but it causes me too miss work more than I should. I’m on medication but still feel depressed most days. Every day is a struggle. Mornings are the worst. I just want to stay in bed all day but have to really force myself to get up and get around.
I am nearly full-time right now and I've been absent 4 times this year already. I'm in a union so unlikely to be fired for it, but I know full well they will find something else if they really want to fire me. It's probably not going to happen but I can't help feeling like I have the sword of Damocles dangling about my head. Ugh
 
#10
I have major depressive disorder, too. (Also a couple of head injuries and anxiety.) Have had 3 hospitalizations for it and my family wants me to go in again. I don't really know how that could help -- all the cognitive behavioral therapy in the world hasn't helped me to this point. I BELIEVE that I am defective and unloveable -- word games aren't going to change that for me. Have been on just about all the anti-depressants there are -- some worked for awhile, but eventually lost their effectiveness. ECT is about all that's left, but I'm too scared of the possibility of memory loss. Even though I have many bad memories, there are a few I wouldn't want to risk losing.
 
#11
I think I belong to this club. I have had at least 7 major depression in witch 2 resulted for me to resing my job.Last one was something that I never recovered fully.After that I never felt joy unless I was under influence.I think i have now given up. Im not trying to get better anymore.I rather try to get out of this life.
 

Freyja

Not staff. Freyja with a j.
SF Supporter
#12
7 years ago, I was diagnosed with a seasonal and/or moderate disorder and burn out, then major since three years ago, now it just became my normal life I guess (the burn out is gone though). I took medication, then it didn't work anymore when it became MDD, then I stopped when I thought I was getting better ... Now I started taking another dosage. It's not getting any better in my case :'( But we'll see what the future brings ...
 
#14
I have MDD also since age 22. It really rears it’s ugly head once or twice per year and lasts fri 3-5 weeks each time. This has been going on for around 30 years. I’ve found ways to get past it. What I have been using for the past 10 years are flower essences. At least for me they have an extraordinary effect so that barring the one or two bouts of MDD which come without cause, I’m quite happy with my life.
What exactly are flower essences? What type(s) do you use? I've been living with MDD for over 30 years as well.
 
#15
I was just told I have this. But I don’t really understand the disorder aspect. People talk about it like it’s a mental problem they were born with. Or they have it, but it only effects them a few times a year. So is it a defect in your brain, or just a condition? Because the way I feel was mostly triggered by an event. I felt fine before. Not really happy, but fine. Is MDD the result of that event, or have I always had it and that event brought it to the surface? I’ve had a lot of deeply bad experiences in my life. But I’ve never felt like this. But this one thing has really decimated me. And I’m curious about what they say I have.
 

Aurelia

Daylight, like she.
#16
I was just told I have this. But I don’t really understand the disorder aspect. People talk about it like it’s a mental problem they were born with. Or they have it, but it only effects them a few times a year. So is it a defect in your brain, or just a condition? Because the way I feel was mostly triggered by an event. I felt fine before. Not really happy, but fine. Is MDD the result of that event, or have I always had it and that event brought it to the surface? I’ve had a lot of deeply bad experiences in my life. But I’ve never felt like this. But this one thing has really decimated me. And I’m curious about what they say I have.
I think it's still unclear as to whether someone could be born with depression (or any psychiatric disorder, for that matter). But it is possible to be predisposed to it. If someone in your family has had it, for example, you could have a genetic makeup that makes you more likely to end up with depression in the future. But that would depend on certain environmental factors. Some people don't have any history of mental illness in their families though, and they still end up with it. Either way, I wouldn't call it a defect, just an imbalance of certain neurotransmitters.
 
#17
The diagnose from my doctor was the persistent depressive disorder with intermittent major depressive, but after I read the relevant chapters of DSM-5, I think my symptoms match with MDD. I have struggled for it, although not for years, but at least for months. It has severely affected the productivity of my work. I have not thought about suicide yet; perhaps that is the effect of the medication. But I am really confused about my future life.
 

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