I am an exceptional fuck up! I fucked up school cause my appendix went, and when I got back i couldn't handle the extra workload. oh and that was just my most recent attempt at school, i have 3 classes worth of credits for almost 4 years worth of effort. Its really not fair, I want to be "normal"... It would almost be worth it to lose all my creativity just to be a normal person. I can't even drink anymore because of my medication. I only feel alive when I'm with her or writing. Other than that i might as well be dead.