Ive always had fantasies of being mentally ill/unstable. In the past ive tried to develope certain behaviours in myself, such as talking to people who arnt there, seeing obects and people that dont exist, strong emotional connection to inanimate objects etc. I guess cutting myself is a REAL mental unstability but then i question if im only doing it to become mentally unstable.. I do it to relive stress, so i guess that ones fair. Every time i realise im doing something abit strange i always like to think its because i have something wrong with my brain but i dont lie to myself, i allways admit that i HOPE thats what it is but its more likely to be that ive auto programed myself to act like im mentally ill. god this sounds bollocks. I also find (minor)mental unstability very attractive in young females. Anyway my question is does anyone else do this or find it attractive in other people?