To walk through work today, and not have her there hurt so bad. I still cant believe she is gone. I miss her smile. I miss her gentle hugs. just cant get the tears to stop. She had the most gentle soul and the biggest heart. I miss my friend so much. I just feel like its not real. I am angry, I hurt. All I want to do is just sit in my apartment alone. I just dont feel like anything right now. I dont know. I cant concentrate on homework I just I dont know. All I feel like doing is crying. I feel even weaker I feel like it should have been me. I dont know anymore.