I lost her to suicide when I was 11. I know that was seven years ago, but I'll always miss her. She left me with questions that I won't have the answers to. I tend to blame myself, because we argued that night before she committed suicide. I don't know if this will trigger anyone negatively. But all I know is that I miss her more now sense I'm 18 living my grandparents. I'm a survivor of suicide based on a teen link chat I had a few nights ago. I've been depressed before in the past, and I have suicidal thoughts. I'm glad I never physically attempted suicide. My mom had her reason she took her life. I don't think I'll ever know the answer why. I just thought I would share this before I get ready for classes today. I've suffered a great loss in my life.. I can't share feelings with my family. I guess I'm scared how they'll react or respond to this. I find if easier to talk to others I don't really know. All I know is I got another long day ahead of me.