I miss you so much and the days are long without you. The dogs are keeping me company, and if they even see a tear the are all over me. It helps but each day is still hard. I still don't know how I am going to carry on, I don't want to, but I am still going to wait out the winter before making any decisions. I wish I had your strength, I thought I did but right now I am still so raw. I had to throw out your clothes because of what happened and I miss your smell. I ordered the tree of life to keep some of your ashes in and it should be here just after you are returned to me. I hope that holding you with me will help give me strength. I love you and will do my best to hold on.[ eye love ewe]