I was diagnosed with major depression a year and a half ago. Around December of 2012, the familiar feeling came back, I thought I would be able to get through it, but I haven't. I started to cut again, this time deeper and more frequently, the depression is getting worse, and I've started to skip meals and even purge occasionally, I have thought about ending my life, coming up with plans and even dates. I know I should tell someone, but then I won't get to move back in with my mom and that's the only thing I've been looking forward to since December. Everyday is a struggle, I put on a fake smile and I laugh so people won't question me, but even smiling hurts. I just want the pain to end. I'm so lost and confused. At school I was asked the question "Where do you see yourself in 10 years" and I said hopefully working, maybe starting a family, but in reality, I don't see a future for me, and that scares me more than anything. I don't know what to do anymore.