Hello,
Im just doing another rant because once again, no motivation for anything in my life.
I just got a job and did my 1st day today...9am - 5pm..
i go in again tomorrow, but after work i just sat and thought....whats the point of me having a job, living on my own...
my life will stay this way for the rest of my life...just like scars...how can people be so defensive and call the police on someone who cuts,
but those who dont want a job because they hate being told what to do HAVE to get a job...i just dont understand anymore...
family members of mine are growing up so fast, graduating high school / college even moving across the country..they seem so happy and they are like 5 years younger than me...i feel like a complete loser...i dont stand up for anything anymore...no point when all my dreams / hopes keeping vanishing before me...
i wish i could go back in time and grow up before my parents flew me out to ontario without my consent....
ever since i came out here, its been a hell hole for me...i havent been "truly" happy to myself every since... i feel like im living a nightmare
sorry for the rant, just going through a rough time right now...
Im just doing another rant because once again, no motivation for anything in my life.
I just got a job and did my 1st day today...9am - 5pm..
i go in again tomorrow, but after work i just sat and thought....whats the point of me having a job, living on my own...
my life will stay this way for the rest of my life...just like scars...how can people be so defensive and call the police on someone who cuts,
but those who dont want a job because they hate being told what to do HAVE to get a job...i just dont understand anymore...
family members of mine are growing up so fast, graduating high school / college even moving across the country..they seem so happy and they are like 5 years younger than me...i feel like a complete loser...i dont stand up for anything anymore...no point when all my dreams / hopes keeping vanishing before me...
i wish i could go back in time and grow up before my parents flew me out to ontario without my consent....
ever since i came out here, its been a hell hole for me...i havent been "truly" happy to myself every since... i feel like im living a nightmare
sorry for the rant, just going through a rough time right now...