I'm a 25 year old male that's 6'3" 240 pounds. I suffer from a condition that has been named "Bigorexia". Its similar to OCD because I'm so dissatisfied with my body that it has caused me to start having suicidal ideations. Despite the fact I look extremely healthy on the outside I'm miserable on the inside. I get extremely irritable if I miss a workout or a meal. I get anxious going to social events with my wife because there's always alcohol and unhealthy food and I don't want people to think I'm a jerk when i turn it down. I'm also on my second AAS cycle and I'm not seeing the gains I thought I would even though I'm a bit stronger. I just want to be happy but its so hard when so many other people look way better then me due to superior genetics and I train ten times harder.