I know this may seem abit wierd.... but I am actually going to post about the death thats been bothering me the most.... in almost tow years now have I been dead... or I DIED 26. november 2006.... that was the first time I truly lost my control... and I feel like I lost a person I loved very VERY much that day.... allways when I think about the time before then I alomst start too cry because that reminds me of the loss... I don't know why I'm posting this here in this room, but it's true.... this reakky hurts more than any death in my family I've ever experianced.... I am dead thats all...... and I hope you all understand why I'm writing this here.....