I'm a practicing alcoholic who can't support her family. No matter how i try I can't pay my bills or keep ahead of them. I can't do anythingright. I'm losing work, either my fault or the economy, either way I can't pay my bills and am losing ground rapidly. I think this is the result, directly or indircely, of my bad choices in the past. I am stil paying for these bad choices. I hate myself and the failures I am. No antidepressants can cure bad judgement. I'm a loser.