I don't come on this section often, but bear with me. As of today, I am seven months sober from alcohol. I suppose that is a good thing, but I don't really feel that great. The main reason is because some of the things in my life, still hurt. Things like my past...especially the painful memories from the past. I got rejected five years ago from a girl and the thought of wanting to take a chance again is painful. I wasn't good enough for her and I don't know if I am good enough for anyone else. No matter what I do, like say volunteer, for example, I just feel more emptiness than fulfillment if that makes sense. I mean, I guess I feel somewhat okay about helping others, but I still feel alone and in pain. I really don't remember the last time I truly felt happy if at all. I try to smile when I am doing somehting 9ex: like today at the bank) but it's hard. There is more, but this is the best I can explain this. The reason why i brought up my sobriety is because drinking helped numb the pain. And NO , I AM NOT one who believes in medication. I'm sorry for getting on the defensive like that, and I'm sorry if this didn't make sense.