My Dog Just Died

Discussion in 'Grief and Bereavement' started by BitterandNumb, Sep 23, 2016.

  1. BitterandNumb

    BitterandNumb Member

    I know it's a cliche, and probably not that interesting to complete strangers, but my beloved dog has just passed away today. Her name was Zelda. She was 14 years old, and the past couple of days she had stopped eating, was completely lethargic, having bowel movements while laying down and being unable to get up out of them, and sometimes would start twitching and convulsing, as if she was having a seizure. Before my mother and I even took her to the vet, we were afraid that this would be our last goodbye to her. And sure enough, the vet said she had lost a frightening amount of weight and recommended euthanasia. I held my beloved dog in my arms as her life slipped away from the injection. When I got home, I dug the deepest hole I've ever dug in my life in my backyard, and buried her right there. I still can't believe she's gone. This house feels so empty without her. I feel pretty empty, myself. Not sure how long it will take for this pain to pass.
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  2. Brian777

    Brian777 Safety and Support SF Artist SF Supporter

    @BitterandNumb im so very sorry you lost you dear friend. I've been through this with my last dog and I too held her as she slipped away at the vets. It's the most heartbreaking feeling I've ever felt, I could actually feel her leave and the emptiness after she left devastated me. Nobody understands this feeling unless they've experienced it. There are no words of comfort, but just know that the pain you feel, I understand and grieve with you. Take care of yourself my friend and if you want to talk pm me.
  3. Rockclimbinggirl

    Rockclimbinggirl SF climber Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    hugs. take care.
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  4. Frances M

    Frances M Mountain Woman

    @BitterandNumb My heart breaks to read this...I've had to hold 2 of my pugs as they passed away, it's devastating. It's been 2 years since my last pug died and even though I have 3 new dogs, I still shed a tear in memory of him. I'm so sorry for your loss. Please take care...Hugs Hugs Hugs
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  5. Greying

    Greying Well-Known Member

    Aww this is so sad. Zelda a was a lucky dog to have been loved so much.

    Zillions of virtual hugs x
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  6. Witty_Sarcasm

    Witty_Sarcasm Eccentric writer, general weirdo, heedless heathen

    Pets become part of the family after they are with you for so long. I am really sorry to hear about the loss of your dog. I know it is not easy to deal with. But she lived a long and happy life, and you will always have the memories of her. We are here for you. *hugs*
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  7. SillyOldBear

    SillyOldBear Teddy Bear Fanatic Staff Alumni

    So sorry to hear of your loss. Pets are such a special part of the family.
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  8. calvinandhobbs

    calvinandhobbs Well-Known Member

    I am so very, very sorry for your loss.
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  9. spacecowboy

    spacecowboy Well-Known Member

    When I lost (Doll) Baby years ago, I was a blubbering idiot. I helped birth her. Momma had her in my bed. I've not had an animal since then. And I found out shortly afterwards that I'm allergic to cats after having them for years. Where I'm living now, pets aren't allowed. @BitterandNumb, I feel your pain. And am sorry for your loss.
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  10. Claudia UK

    Claudia UK Well-Known Member

    I know to well.what you have gone through. Lost my little girl August this year and I miss her with every ounce of my being. It doesn't get easier . I think the hardest part is not to let them go it's how much your world changes afterwards and the emptiness left in your heart.
  11. foreverforgotten

    foreverforgotten Well-Known Member

    I miss my little black kitty. I had him for 14 years ever since I was 12 around half my lifetime. And he was always there. I too feel like I lost a part of me still. Its been 5 months he died a month before my dad. My dad cried for him too.. Ge was our goid buddy, and family member. 2016 is the worst year for me.. itll be tough competition to beat. He couldnt gain weight and was insulin dependent diabetic. He was super skinny and his kidneys failed. Then he stopped eating, which for insulin diabetic.. is impossible to continue on with. There will never be another cat like him. I know how you feel.. it's haunting to remember the last moments. I try to remember inly the good things. Sounds like they had good long runs. :>
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  12. Lost my one and only dog about 4 years ago, was named Goffy. When he passed away I was in so much shock I denied had even passed on, I feel your pain and to be honest the pain lasts a long time, even to this day I think and mourn after his passing but its best to think that your dog is in a better place and is no longer in pain. The best thing I can think of is to gather a collection of all of her things and store it in box to remember her by. Im sorry for your loss
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  13. walker95

    walker95 Staff Member Safety & Support SF Social Media SF Supporter

    Sorry to hear about the loss of your Zelda. Many understand how terrible this can be. Please care for yourself right now. Stay close, we're all here.
  14. Deety

    Deety SF Supporter

    Sorry to hear of Zelda's passing, let yourself feel the grief and work through it. Losing a beloved pet is hard, they are such a big part of our lives. Be kind to yourself, it may take a while for the pain to ease, take care.