I find it difficult to write normally, I've wrote this to be read at my funeral, I know its pathetic, I'm pathetic and stupid...I just wanted to let anyone who does turn up to know how I was feeling... none of it makes sense and I apologise, I wish the thoughts would ease.
You all saw her with a smile of her face
going thru life, with no problems to embrace
beliving she could handal her own
so u all left her feeling alone
You believed that she didn't need ur love or ur care
u saw what u wanted to see, not what was really there.
U all ignored the signs that she gave
which has now lead her to her grave
She reached out to you, her mum
but you left her feeling it was her fault, she was dumb
words of pathetic, stupid, annoying and calling her a tart
are words she took right to the heart.
The words u called her, are the words she used for herself
that then lead her to kill herself.
She longed to hear the words like I love you
but they day they came, it rang untrue
words like pathetic and tart that came from the heart
were said with so much truth, made her feel like a spare part.
words like i love you, to ease ur guilt from playing ur part.
but were words said with out emotion or any heart.
She tried to hide the pain she felt inside
show herself and everyone that she still had some pride
but she was running from feelings she was always told to hide
no-one realised or saw that years ago this girl had died
She never felt part of the family,
she always felt she was the enemy
blamed for everything that went wrong
but still she tried to remain strong.
Years of feeling lonely and afraid
feelings of being betrayed
betrayed by those she thought cared
but no more of this can be shared.
Her life became to much, she felt to overwhelmed
She admitted defeat, she couldn't fight
so before she closed her eyes for the nite
she asked me to let you know that now things will be alright.
You all saw her with a smile of her face
going thru life, with no problems to embrace
beliving she could handal her own
so u all left her feeling alone
You believed that she didn't need ur love or ur care
u saw what u wanted to see, not what was really there.
U all ignored the signs that she gave
which has now lead her to her grave
She reached out to you, her mum
but you left her feeling it was her fault, she was dumb
words of pathetic, stupid, annoying and calling her a tart
are words she took right to the heart.
The words u called her, are the words she used for herself
that then lead her to kill herself.
She longed to hear the words like I love you
but they day they came, it rang untrue
words like pathetic and tart that came from the heart
were said with so much truth, made her feel like a spare part.
words like i love you, to ease ur guilt from playing ur part.
but were words said with out emotion or any heart.
She tried to hide the pain she felt inside
show herself and everyone that she still had some pride
but she was running from feelings she was always told to hide
no-one realised or saw that years ago this girl had died
She never felt part of the family,
she always felt she was the enemy
blamed for everything that went wrong
but still she tried to remain strong.
Years of feeling lonely and afraid
feelings of being betrayed
betrayed by those she thought cared
but no more of this can be shared.
Her life became to much, she felt to overwhelmed
She admitted defeat, she couldn't fight
so before she closed her eyes for the nite
she asked me to let you know that now things will be alright.