I came to this site today b/c for the past two months I have tried to overdose, give myself alcohol poisoning. Last night I had so my sleeping pills and I still couldn't go down, this morning, my stomach was VIOLENT. It's like my body was getting rid of it anyway it could. So I sit here again, drinking myself to death, hoping my body will just give up and let me die. I don't have a sole to reach out to. And to make it worse yesterday I called 911, but I couldn't even speak, they never showed up, so I know now that I can truly die in my apartment and no one would discover me for days, may be weeks. Yeah, that really makes me feel like I am less than dirt. I can't take this pain anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. If I wasn't afraid I would kill and innocent person I would swing my car out in front a tractor trailer on the highway. I want to die. I don't want to do this anymore.