Empathy Only My Last Suicide Attempt Nearly Killed Me

[Klb18]

Hi there,

Sorry to intrude and bother you all! I was forwarded. My name is Kurtis I'm 28 and from the UK. I'm a survivor of child and sexual abuse inflicted by my father. Obviously this is going on 13 years ago now. But 13 years of PTSD, anxiety and depression, self harming, suicide attempts and I've just not had many people around all my life not the same support group most people have. Recently though, I reported the abuse I suffered to the police and I spoke out, and it's now in investigation stages and he's finally going to have to answer for what he did to me. However, I'm in severe financial despair, I go days without eating, I'm just crippled with stress and legal fees <mod edit - guidelines >

 

[iloverachel]

Hey and welcome to this forum
So sorry to hear about what happened to you
Best of luck with everything

 

[Saint Rita]

Welcome to the SF family, brother!

I'm sorry to hear about what you went through. I hope your father gets all the punishment he deserves.

Wishing you all the best in life!

 

[1964dodge]

welcome to SF we are a peer community that cares but never judges. please look around at the different forums and post when you feel comfortable or go into chat if you prefer real time. i'm sorry that you are going through so much right now but people here will always offer support

mike...

 

[KM76710]

@Klb18

Glad you found the forum and you are not intruding and no bother because you are at a welcoming place. Good place to explore and get to know others and just share and join in as you want to and I hope that you keep doing that.

 

[StellaQ33n]

Welcome to SF! sorry to hear all that you have been through and I hope that your father will not harm you again.
Stay safe and hope it get's better

 

[may71]

Sorry that you have gone and are going through so much Kurtis.

Sorry to intrude and bother you all!

Nothing to be sorry about, there's no bother or intrusion. This is what SF is for.

I'm a survivor of child and sexual abuse inflicted by my father.

Child sex abuse is always a terrible thing, but the fact that a parent who had a duty to love and care for you was the perpetrator adds to it a profound betrayal. I hope that you'll be able to start healing from this.

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

Hi there,

Sorry to intrude and bother you all! I was forwarded. My name is Kurtis I'm 28 and from the UK. I'm a survivor of child and sexual abuse inflicted by my father. Obviously this is going on 13 years ago now. But 13 years of PTSD, anxiety and depression, self harming, suicide attempts and I've just not had many people around all my life not the same support group most people have. Recently though, I reported the abuse I suffered to the police and I spoke out, and it's now in investigation stages and he's finally going to have to answer for what he did to me. However, I'm in severe financial despair, I go days without eating, I'm just crippled with stress and legal fees <mod edit - guidelines >

I'm so sorry to hear of what happened to you, Kurtis. If you haven't already connected with an IRL group for survivors of sexual abuse, you may want to look into that.

I don't know what it's like in the UK but I'm confused about why you would have to pay legal fees. Does the Crown not prosecute criminals? That's how it is in Canada and we use the British system. We also have Victim Services here that assist victims of crime. I hope you can get help there through social services or other organizations. You shouldn't be going without eating. Are there not food pantries there you might access?

We do have many SF members in the UK who might be able to provide you with better suggestions. I hope you are able to persist until you get help. It wasn't your fault, yet I know it leaves your life in shambles. A close friend of mine went through EMDR for trauma but it took years for him to get it (he lived in the UK and unfortunately died of a physical illness). He felt it was helping him.