My psychiatrist of 12 plus years passed away due to a massive stroke. This has been devestating to me. Not only was he my doctor he was my friend. Such a long association between the two of us, fighting to keep me alive and sane and healthy. He was such a good doc. I miss him so much firstly for those reasons. Second is I am having troubles finding a new pdoc. There are none on my plan under 100 miles from where I live. That means I will have to find one out of network. I don't even know how that works. Third is I am currently under disability review I don't know how this will affect it. All in all it makes me sad and stressed at the same time.