So i've been having alot of trouble lately and alot of things have been getting me down. But not today because today it got cold enough this arfternoon that after my babys bath i could put her in a onesie. the first shes been in, in six months meaning last time she was only rolling around, this time i can watch a little girl giggleing and running around in a beautiful pink princess onsie! it was so funny getting her in it then watching her get used to it. If you've ever seen a dog in socks you'll understand a bit better what it was like watching her walk arund for the first few minutes. so cute watching her little face screwed up in consintration as she inspects her own feet and so adorable cutling her all soft and warm in her new pjs. i thought i'd share this moment because as i cuddled her and laughed with her tonight i felt the sense of rightness that im still here to do this. It's hard going and somedays i wish i wasn't here but never about her. never do i doubt i'm meant to love and care for this precious little human and even when shes being so frustrating i wanna cry its still a good feeling because i know its not my dark thought but a normal parental reaction to having your dinner poured into your lap. And i never want to leave her alone in the world because she has me and i have her and together were gonna be just fine.