My so called mom is becoming a big abuser of my life again

[Congratsbaby]

By again , I meant during a particular year , few years back. She was the most abusive person in my life.

I can see the traits starting tracing back again.

She is working more than usual , it is going to give her more money however it's not like needed or we are deprived of money. Plus , she gets to hear it beforehand. Despite whatever societal pressures or whatever else. Abuse just shouldn't be the thing.

So , like she has been giving a lot of threats. " I am gonna throw away your phone. "

And , just disgusting verbal abuse , like " you do not do anything all day. You're yada , yada , yada. "

Subtle nagging is different from abuse. She is abusive.

It is becoming so overwhelming everytime she comes back from her work.

I do the household chores I am ask to do on time. I am not studying 24/7 but nonetheless I have and am doing my best.

You are just so jealous of me because you lack peace and oh god , I don't have it either. I just , don't try to fit in.

It is seriously so overbearing and all you want is to sometimes smack the adult's brain and just put some actual stuff in there. Like this is so bad , you're a parent but you weren't supposed to be.

So so so abusive. I literally just been having so many violent fantasies of hurting her physically with my own hands.

This is so bad. I mentioned there is something better in my life , no. No , this has started.

And the switch that goes off when she sees me studying when she comes back from home , her tone , her mannerisms

Like woah what are you , snake or a chameleon

I am just so disgusted and I and no one else deserves a bad life because we have so called parents.

 

[JeiJie]

Man that sounds tough. One abuser is finally leaving your life, just for another kind to start. I can imagine how difficult it is to walk the line around someone that can switch on a dime because of circumstances outside of your control. I hope you don't take her insults to heart and don't give her the satisfaction of a reaction.

It's clear when people like that just want to argue or see someone else feel bad. If you can, avoid her, at least when you suspect she's in a bad mood (listen to how she talks and acts when she gets home from work) and don't "give her a reason" to be upset at you. This is very subjective and honestly, abuser will make anything up and blame someone else for it, just for the sake of it. But do what you typically do, chores and whatever, so that she will have less of a "reason" to confront you.

Prioritize your peace above all!

 

[Congratsbaby]

Man that sounds tough. One abuser is finally leaving your life, just for another kind to start. I can imagine how difficult it is to walk the line around someone that can switch on a dime because of circumstances outside of your control. I hope you don't take her insults to heart and don't give her the satisfaction of a reaction.

It's clear when people like that just want to argue or see someone else feel bad. If you can, avoid her, at least when you suspect she's in a bad mood (listen to how she talks and acts when she gets home from work) and don't "give her a reason" to be upset at you. This is very subjective and honestly, abuser will make anything up and blame someone else for it, just for the sake of it. But do what you typically do, chores and whatever, so that she will have less of a "reason" to confront you.

Prioritize your peace above all!

Thankyou I appreciate it. I get what you're saying , there are times when I would be studying from morning but I'd be taking a break during her return so she goes " you've put the books out for show ". I don't explain cause I just don't. I feel that is healthy for me.

Yeah , you're right. They do can scrape out things from anything.

I have been letting her things get to me , yesterday was super tough. Today is a bit better. It's difficult to believe I am beautiful , I know I am but yeah.

I hope I am not letting her get the reaction Outta me either.

Thankyou, I do really appreciate this.