arghh whenever i laying on the bed, sudden thoughts of the problems that is coming my way really makes me just want to end it, i have think of the plan - i never been to this extent where i have courage to even think of the way. it just that i don't have the means on hand at the moment. But the question still do i need to do it?! i'm not like this before, but lately all these problems really overwhelm my capacity. i wish i'm dead really!!! FARK IT!! sorry, just want to let off my troubled mind at the moment..