Hi guys. I've made a lot of progress in the last couple years in terms of my mental health and my wellbeing, but I cannot seem to kick by addictive personality.
I've always had massive probelms with my weight, but every time I try and conquer it I get even worse a few months later. About a year shiago I lost about a stone an a half through excesise and dietining and ive never felt better, but now it's literally a joke how much I am eating and spending.
The last 3 months have been the worse, I see myself gorging on such an unhealthy amount of food i am physically amazed it can all fit inside me. For instance, bout an hour ago I went to ASDA and spent 15 quid on this...
Two diet cokes, white choc chip cookie, large sushi, chicken sandwich, prawn cocktail crisps, duck wrap, two packets of cashews, small pack of biscuits and a meat feast baguette.
That is about 4000 calories and I finished it within about 10 minutes. What worries me most is that I get into such a weird phase when I'm binging like this e.g. everything has to be particular, laid out in front of me before I start eating. I'm so upset at how I cannot seem to shake this. Every single night I lay in bed determined to eat healthy the next day and exercise, but it seems I literally go into a trance and find myself going to just buying so much food. It's really impacting my life, and the be honest it's pretty much the only thing in my life I'm not happy with - but it's destroying me. The way I look, the clothes I wear, the way people view me.
Is this a real problem? I need help as I cannot deal with this anymore.
Any suggestions?
Alex
I've always had massive probelms with my weight, but every time I try and conquer it I get even worse a few months later. About a year shiago I lost about a stone an a half through excesise and dietining and ive never felt better, but now it's literally a joke how much I am eating and spending.
The last 3 months have been the worse, I see myself gorging on such an unhealthy amount of food i am physically amazed it can all fit inside me. For instance, bout an hour ago I went to ASDA and spent 15 quid on this...
Two diet cokes, white choc chip cookie, large sushi, chicken sandwich, prawn cocktail crisps, duck wrap, two packets of cashews, small pack of biscuits and a meat feast baguette.
That is about 4000 calories and I finished it within about 10 minutes. What worries me most is that I get into such a weird phase when I'm binging like this e.g. everything has to be particular, laid out in front of me before I start eating. I'm so upset at how I cannot seem to shake this. Every single night I lay in bed determined to eat healthy the next day and exercise, but it seems I literally go into a trance and find myself going to just buying so much food. It's really impacting my life, and the be honest it's pretty much the only thing in my life I'm not happy with - but it's destroying me. The way I look, the clothes I wear, the way people view me.
Is this a real problem? I need help as I cannot deal with this anymore.
Any suggestions?
Alex