I am in so much pain, i feel so severely depressed right now. I feel so alone, the loneliness, the lack of love or care that i feel, and the fog that is over my head. I wish I had a friend who understood, who cared and could help me and I would do the same for them. This pain that i feel is so bad that it makes it so that i can't see anything but the pain, i can't see past my own pain as selfish as that sounds. I want to get out of this, i want to see other things and people. This thing just won't leave me alone, this pain, this fear, this loneliness. It doesn't end, it just keeps on going and going, it is unreal, it feels like it is impossible for this to change.