I just got out of the hospital two days ago and i was there 5 days for suicidal thoughts and depression, i had a total break down after my girlfriend who was basically my fiancee wanted to break up. After i got out, i talked to her and its more of a year long break to help me be more independent and grownup and for her to forget how terrible i was and remember why she loves me. I dont know if i can take the stress from this year apart because she was my best friend and my only real friend. I talked to her throughout each day for almost two years. I keep having bad thoughts