i didn't know were to post, here or crisis. im 21. live in average home. have a fulltime job. no friends. for the last week ive been trying to figure out a way to just die. I have managed to fuckup everything good in my life. idk why i even bother posting here. im just going to go on with this plateau of depression. i have been depressed for years. i have seen multiple doctors for it and have taken meds....meds make me feel like a zombie and like i have no life in me.. honestly i would rather be dead then on meds. im sorry. i guess i need a friend..