I couldn't sleep all night. I didn't go to work this morning. I feel like I don't have any willpower. I've been keeping up with most of my responsibilities, but I still have to take a day every once in a while. Even when I do the things I'm supposed to be doing, I'm just going through the motions. Since my boyfriend passed away a few weeks ago, it feels like the only reason I'm still doing things is because I haven't stopped breathing yet. It's supposed to get easier as time goes on, but it seems like it is just getting harder. I don't know how to make the pain go away other than to just not feel anything at all anymore.