not a human

[maeday]

i am not a human.

i don't know how to explain it, but i am not a person. i do not understand people, how they interact or think or feel. i only feel two emotions; sadness and fear. i have been this way for as long as i've been "alive". nothing is real and everything is just make believe. nobody really cares about you, it's all a facade to make them seem like a good person. existence is just an exercise in futility. i want off the ride now please. i am certain i have a neurodegenerative disease. please end this. please. if i can't find a way to go back and fix it from the beginning, start over, then i don't want to keep going i cannot keep going. my head hurts all the time. i cannot stop crying. it is all i do.

i am not a human.

 

[may71]

i am not a human

Yes you are. You are human, you have inherent worth as a human, you have feelings, and you need and deserve love and care. Maybe you haven't been treated like a human, but that doesn't mean that you aren't or don't deserve to be.

nobody really cares about you

I care about you
I bet other people here care about you too. I'm sorry that you haven't felt like anyone cares.

i am certain i have a neurodegenerative disease

Do you want to say why you are certain?