Hi. I have clinical depression, social anxieties and many more issues besides. I haven't self harmed in a while and things, on the surface, are good. But I'm finding it harder and harder to motivate myself. My sleep patterns are all over the place and my dreams are bad. This is usually the beginning of a low mood spell but this time I'm scared. I don't have my usual coping strategies to fall back on and without them I'm worried I'll have no release from the suicidal urges. I feel so lonely. The only person who really understands I can't talk to. I rely on him far too much as it is. So once again I came here, hoping a kindly stranger would help. Please, can anyone help me?