I hear you. I feel much the same, regarding the state of the world we live in and what's to be done about it, when so many are complacent, apathetic, tired, trapped... just like so many of us on here are and feel.
For what it's worth, here's some things that I have stored up on my bucket list that I personally want to accomplish, to feel like I am not a complete failure (which I really am, by my own standards). At the end of the day, we only can be responsible for our own selves. We can live in bitterness (I do, but I feel that I am better than that, I don't want to have that ugly negative view of myself that just brings me down further) or we can say to ourselves, okay, what are we (I always say that when I'm talking to myself -- as in me, the physical person and me, the mental person) going to do to get our AIG to get out of this self-defeating rut? I've thought about starting a YouTube video blog, and talking about the things I'm frustrated and angry about. On my negative thinking days, my thoughts run something like this: It's been said and done so many times. What could I possibly say that hasn't been said already? Same with an online blog or writing articles. The Internet is becoming saturated. I would like to think I could help clarify someone's thoughts, but hardly anyone has the time and patience to listen or read to long videos or pieces of writing these days. And then on my more positive days, I think: Well, I will just put something out there, and if someone finds some benefit, great; if not, so be it. This is the attitude I am finally coming to have with my artwork and making peace with myself, so that the perfectionist part of me doesn't ruin my life by always stepping in and saying: You're Not Good Enough So Why Bother? I am learning this through adult coloring books and ZenTangle. I do coloring and doodling for the pure creative pleasure of it, not to show anyone, make money (although that would be nice), or get admiration or compliments from other people. I do have an idea to do speed coloring and drawing videos, because I like watching those myself, not because I want to gain anything, but because I would like to share with others and give something free (which I'm doing anyway) that other people might enjoy watching. I was just thinking the other day, how all these crappy economical/societal systems that we've been given are not working and all result in the same outcome, because the greedy bastards always rise to the top and manipulate anything that may have been started for the good. For instance, I love the Arts and Crafts movement, but some of the people who were involved in it were Socialists and many times have been painted with a negative brush. Well, what if they had good intentions and were just naive enough to think that their ideas and plans would make a better world? Part of their ideas involved eugenics. I have initially thought any kind of eugenics is purely evil. But then after seeing how much damage narcissists and psychopath people do by having children who will quite possibly turn out like them, then I wonder maybe eugenics isn't such a bad idea after all. My sister's daughter has beaten the shit out of my sister a few times, and I fully believe that someone like that should not have been allowed to exist.
If you can find a way to get out of the rotten system that you despise, do so. Make plans, write them down, implement them, step-by-step, take baby steps at times and larger ones when you can. If you have no ideas or where to start, there are many people who feel exactly the same as we do, and they talk about it online in forums, social media, videos, articles, etc. and you can get ideas from them and when something resonates, write it down and take notes. Eventually you will see a way out. Do it for your children, especially.
For what it's worth, here's some things that I have stored up on my bucket list that I personally want to accomplish, to feel like I am not a complete failure (which I really am, by my own standards). At the end of the day, we only can be responsible for our own selves. We can live in bitterness (I do, but I feel that I am better than that, I don't want to have that ugly negative view of myself that just brings me down further) or we can say to ourselves, okay, what are we (I always say that when I'm talking to myself -- as in me, the physical person and me, the mental person) going to do to get our AIG to get out of this self-defeating rut? I've thought about starting a YouTube video blog, and talking about the things I'm frustrated and angry about. On my negative thinking days, my thoughts run something like this: It's been said and done so many times. What could I possibly say that hasn't been said already? Same with an online blog or writing articles. The Internet is becoming saturated. I would like to think I could help clarify someone's thoughts, but hardly anyone has the time and patience to listen or read to long videos or pieces of writing these days. And then on my more positive days, I think: Well, I will just put something out there, and if someone finds some benefit, great; if not, so be it. This is the attitude I am finally coming to have with my artwork and making peace with myself, so that the perfectionist part of me doesn't ruin my life by always stepping in and saying: You're Not Good Enough So Why Bother? I am learning this through adult coloring books and ZenTangle. I do coloring and doodling for the pure creative pleasure of it, not to show anyone, make money (although that would be nice), or get admiration or compliments from other people. I do have an idea to do speed coloring and drawing videos, because I like watching those myself, not because I want to gain anything, but because I would like to share with others and give something free (which I'm doing anyway) that other people might enjoy watching. I was just thinking the other day, how all these crappy economical/societal systems that we've been given are not working and all result in the same outcome, because the greedy bastards always rise to the top and manipulate anything that may have been started for the good. For instance, I love the Arts and Crafts movement, but some of the people who were involved in it were Socialists and many times have been painted with a negative brush. Well, what if they had good intentions and were just naive enough to think that their ideas and plans would make a better world? Part of their ideas involved eugenics. I have initially thought any kind of eugenics is purely evil. But then after seeing how much damage narcissists and psychopath people do by having children who will quite possibly turn out like them, then I wonder maybe eugenics isn't such a bad idea after all. My sister's daughter has beaten the shit out of my sister a few times, and I fully believe that someone like that should not have been allowed to exist.
If you can find a way to get out of the rotten system that you despise, do so. Make plans, write them down, implement them, step-by-step, take baby steps at times and larger ones when you can. If you have no ideas or where to start, there are many people who feel exactly the same as we do, and they talk about it online in forums, social media, videos, articles, etc. and you can get ideas from them and when something resonates, write it down and take notes. Eventually you will see a way out. Do it for your children, especially.
