Not Sure if I'm Coming Back

[Starry Starry Night]

I've planned to go to the mountains <mod edit - timeline>. Quite honestly, I don't know if I'm going to be coming back. I don't want to. I don't want to feel anything anymore. I've always held out a bit of hope but even that's gone now. Maybe it's better this way ... no more pain, no more tears. I'll finally be with my little girl.

 

[iloverachel]

I hope you feel better soon
Would be really sad if you never came back. We will miss you

 

[Lifeisthis]

Please don't do any harm to yourself. Life is worth living even through difficult times. You can find pleasure through life and you can move forward with the right support. Please call your doctor or go to a hospital and keep talking us, friends or family.

 

[Astrid78]

 

[seabird]

The mountains will be there for the next time you want or need to walk, sit, or hike. Pleaae visit them, then come back. You're eelcome and very much wanted here @Starry Starry Night .

 

[justrob]

I hope you start feeling a little better soon.

 

[benjidog]

Please do come back. This world is better because you are in it. I hope you are okay.

 

[KM76710]

I also hope that things improves and you at least check in here as you can and want to. You are liked and valued here.

 

[17carat]

Hey, i hope you are still here. Please come back any time you need

 

[iloverachel]

How are you? Hope you are safe

 

[Jlove4444]

Are you the one with the dog? Sweet pea? From SaSu?

 

[Livelife]

 

[KM76710]

Are you the one with the dog? Sweet pea? From SaSu?

Good to see that you joined and welcome. I hope that you keep posting and joining in with us here.

 

[CrossedSeas]

Hi @Starry Starry Night, if you’d like one, I just wanted to offer a gentle hug and a lot of empathy and care. I do really hope you’re still here. I actually remember you from some of your posts over a year ago here. I remember thinking that you seemed like such a gentle and kind soul, and it’s really clear you still are. I’m so sorry for all the pain you’ve been going through. I sincerely don’t believe you deserve any of that pain, and I’m sorry it’s been so much to carry. If this would be ok and helpful, I just want to tell you that you matter so much and I hope so much you stay and keep talking with us until you find more of that peace and hope you genuinely deserve.

 

[shortrnd13]

I truly know how you feel. I feel like there is nothing worth loving for and I have to fight every single day to get up put on a brave face and face the world when all I want to do is figure out a way to stop feeling as bad as I do. But the pain is temporary. There was a time when you did not feel this way. What can we do to help you get through the pain? What mountains are you thinking of going to? I enjoy thr mountains and was thinking of section hiking pants of the Appalachian trail. If you want to go to the mountains we can do that together and work through things together (though it is weird for 2 strangers to go hiking in the mountains without ever having met before). Please come back and let us know how your journey was.

I took a trip to San Fran one year determined to jump off the bridge. I walked halfway across and was contemplating it. For about an hour. But I didn't do it and even though I am feeling like doing it again, I'm glad I didn't. And I will continue to do so bravely, like I hope you will too.

 

[KM76710]

I truly know how you feel. I feel like there is nothing worth loving for and I have to fight every single day to get up put on a brave face and face the world when all I want to do is figure out a way to stop feeling as bad as I do. But the pain is temporary. There was a time when you did not feel this way. What can we do to help you get through the pain? What mountains are you thinking of going to? I enjoy thr mountains and was thinking of section hiking pants of the Appalachian trail. If you want to go to the mountains we can do that together and work through things together (though it is weird for 2 strangers to go hiking in the mountains without ever having met before). Please come back and let us know how your journey was.

I took a trip to San Fran one year determined to jump off the bridge. I walked halfway across and was contemplating it. For about an hour. But I didn't do it and even though I am feeling like doing it again, I'm glad I didn't. And I will continue to do so bravely, like I hope you will too.

Welcome to the forum and glad you joined here. I hope that you keep reading and posting, joining in and getting to know the place here because there are many sections to explore. I thinking that hiking the Appalachian trail sounds like it would be fun, or at least when I was younger and had more energy.