Not what I was expecting

[FoReVeR LoSt]

I have to be honest and say and that the last time I posted something here, i think it was way back in 2008. I thought I was getting better, I thought I was on my way, I got meds, moved...and well I find myself back here once again and i don't know what to do with myself.

I don't know reality from the dream world, somedays i forget who I am and when I look in the mirror all i see is the sadness in my eyes. I can't even pretend to make them look happy, that's the part that gets me the most. I use to be a fairly happy person, or at least i was good at faking it, but now i'm just lost in this world of mine. Nothing brings me joy anymore, i don't find myself out and about, I avoid time with people, and all i can think about it is well ya that...and it's really starting to take a toll on me.

I could sit here and write for hours, i'm sure, however i'm not going to bore you guys with my stories. I don't know where i'm going, i don't know where i am, i just need one person to slap me in the face and tell me to wake up. Unfourtunately, no one sees the depressed person i've become...:sad:

 

[corang]

Im here and willing to listen to anything you want to say. You can PM me if you want Ill probably be up all night.

 

[total eclipse]

YOu are not boring keep posting keep getting the thoughts out. I say that too i wish somebody would just smack me side head wake me up or something. You need to vent get the emotions out here okay people care here can relate. I hope you talk to your doctor and maybe get some meds and therapy for your depression it does help.