I feel so extremely sad. I want to cry. I want to hurt myself. I don't know what to do. It's like I have 5000 years of sadness and solitude and loneliness and hopelessness in my back. I feel like crying for years. I don't know. I just feel like dying. I know no one loves me or gives a shit about me. I'm all alone and I'll die alone. I fucking want to cry. I don't want to be me. I don't want to be. I want to get away from this pain. I have to. I must do it. This isn't life. I can't go on. I hate myself.