Tonight is the night. The kind of night where i don't know if i can do it anymore. i feel so alone and so unworthy of living. i look at everyone else and their so happy and i cant seem to find that or be that. i try so hard to be good enough for other people..mostly for him..but how can i when i cant even like myself. im so insecure about everything..when we dont talk for a few days all i can think about is that hes found someone better..someone happier, prettier, skinnier, closer, less insecure. He tells me i should trust him and that he wants us to get to know eachother better and that he doesnt talk to other girls but i cant even believe that. whats wrong with me...i push everyone away..i ruin everything..