After over a year of being in this depressed state, I've made major strides in understanding my situation by myself, but with the support of some close friends. But at this point the situation is far from resolved, and I'm still holding on to find some resolution. What's worse is that I recently lost the support of those friends ... in some cases I can understand people not wanting to be around me if I'm always in a depressed state, but I can't understand why it seems like the person who I truly deeply confided in would seemingly try to hurt me on purpose. And I can't stand being made to feel like I am imposing on people when I clearly don't. I can't beg anyone for support anymore, so I'm now looking for some professional help. Problem is that I'm very jaded by a past psychiatric experience, and in the recent past I was treated very rudely by someone at the suicide hotline. Even though everyone in south Florida is rude, I didn't expect that from the suicide hotline. I also expect that I can't tell anyone, not even a psychriatrist, certain personal things, so I question the value of the service I'll get. And finally, due to the depression, I've not been working much so finances are not great and I have no health insurance. So with all these odds against me, are there any resources that could help me? IE: free psychiatry services? Any recommendations? I'm in the U.S. btw.