It's nothing I'm proud of to talk about.... But I feel I need some advice, badly. My past when I was a young age 15-16, I had been getting into sexuality, and found a nice depression KILLER to boot, my first highs on unmentionables... It wasn't a good mix for me, I couldn't help but be a perv to more than a few women, even online, and nowadays I deeply regret what I did. I know it effected what people thought of me, and some of it is permanent... I feel like such a creep, and I was... I even got made fun of by a couple in the past. I quit the drugs, and have looked into myself and Buddhism to help me gain wisdom and maturity... I have not been sexual with another woman other than past ex girlfriends since, which encouraged it when it came to them..I am 19 now. How do I get over this. I wish I could apologize to them in person, but all I do not have ability to contact and say my sorries... and I don't think they'd care to hear that I was a perv while using ***** and im truly sorry for what I did. Ahh regrets... If only people could understand how much I've changed and am still improving.
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Past regrets of being ****ed up and pervy
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welcome to SF... i think you need for forgive yourself... you are beating yourself up here over something you did when you were wasted. since then you stopped the drugs and did a lot of soul searching it sounds like... that is brave. why are you beating yourself up? we all make mistakes, its how we grow.. maybe without those experiences you would not have found buddhism? just a thought?
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welcome to SF... i think you need for forgive yourself... you are beating yourself up here over something you did when you were wasted. since then you stopped the drugs and did a lot of soul searching it sounds like... that is brave. why are you beating yourself up? we all make mistakes, its how we grow.. maybe without those experiences you would not have found buddhism? just a thought?
You do not say what "wrongs" you have done people?
We are all works in progress. The fact that you have experienced regret shows you are now thinking about your actions. That is a positive move forward. If reparations can be made then it's good to do so but don't allow your regret to hold you down. Realize the consequences of your actions and become wiser for that realization. :smile:
That is how I think most of the time snow. But, I do feel the wrongs in which I've done, and am being very logical with how I'd like to makeup for what I have done. Unfortunately, I cannot get into contact like I have mentioned earlier. If there was ever a moment I had the chance to apologize I would do it without a doubt. I must mention that I did not HURT anyone physically, most being verbally, some through the web... and I know for a fact I have never devastated someone with my comments to the point of hurting them emotionally or mentally. It was the simple fact I was being a dick, with it being on my mind. They got frustrated, that is all. I do not enjoy being looked at as that sort of guy, luckily for future reference I have everything under control. It's just the past.. sigh.