Sorry if this post is way out of line.
Mental health ups and downs do some weird things to my sex drive. The first time I had a really, really bad anxiety and was depressed I was insatiable, I slept with a two digit amount of men within sex months. Most of them were just random hookups (always safe and used protection) and it mostly felt like I was using random sex with random people to fill the void, and a desperate attempt to feel something or feel connected with someone else (didn't work, surprise).
This time, which I consider my second massive breakdown, I just have no interest in sexual things whatsoever. I could watch the sexiest movie ever and I doubt I would feel anything at all. I haven't had sex in months and I barely even masturbate anymore. I know it's normal to feel like that, but I hate it and it contributes to making me feel like I am not myself anymore. Obviously this is an activity that I used to enjoy very much, but now just the thought of having any kind of intimate contact with a man kind of grosses me out and gives me the creeps..?
I don't even know if this is a question, but I hope someone can relate or tell me something soothing.
Mental health ups and downs do some weird things to my sex drive. The first time I had a really, really bad anxiety and was depressed I was insatiable, I slept with a two digit amount of men within sex months. Most of them were just random hookups (always safe and used protection) and it mostly felt like I was using random sex with random people to fill the void, and a desperate attempt to feel something or feel connected with someone else (didn't work, surprise).
This time, which I consider my second massive breakdown, I just have no interest in sexual things whatsoever. I could watch the sexiest movie ever and I doubt I would feel anything at all. I haven't had sex in months and I barely even masturbate anymore. I know it's normal to feel like that, but I hate it and it contributes to making me feel like I am not myself anymore. Obviously this is an activity that I used to enjoy very much, but now just the thought of having any kind of intimate contact with a man kind of grosses me out and gives me the creeps..?
I don't even know if this is a question, but I hope someone can relate or tell me something soothing.