phobia, meds, fighting, oh my.

[Sugar Magnolia]

Hello. Im Michelle. Im 24 years old, married, no kids.
Ive had suicidal ideations my whole life, and recently was hospitalized.
Nothing seems worth it to me anymore, not even things I once loved.
I have zero tolerance, and just don't want to be here anymore.
I STRUGGLE daily with emetophobia, fear of vomitting, and it causes my life to be HELL.
Id love to connect with people on here and have some one to talk to.

 

[morning rush]

welcome to the forum :hug: I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I have a fear of vomiting but I never knew it had a name. I cry if I have to vomit and try desperately not to...but since I don't go out much, I don't get sick often...thank god for that...

 

[Juju]

Hi Michelle, I'm new on here too but for a different reason - I have terminal cancer. If you've struggled with these feelings all your life then I would guess you have underlining issues in your life causing these feelings - can you get these addressed..? If you are able to confront your fears and difficulties and work through them, which will take some time, maybe you might find pleasure in life again...pleasure in your husband, family, friends, pets etc..? I found volunteering at an animal shelter very good as it gave me focus and something constructive to do for a while. Not sure if that's your kind of thing or not, but it's a suggestion....xx

 

[youRprecious!]

welcome to SF Sugar and Juju, it's a great place for finding support, comfort, listening ears and maybe an insight or two which can inspire or help to increase your hope. sorry to hear that you have cancer Juju, you do sound very at peace about your situation, in peace/acceptance of it, that is inspiring in itself I think the thought of needing to vomit fills many with angst - I know it does me, I hate it. Have you seen a specialist about your phobia Sugar?

 

[BlueHealingHeart]

Welcome to SF! :hug: Pm me if you ever need someone to talk too.