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nothing will be alright one day, except if i kill myself.
i didnt get to sleep and im more grumpy than before. seeing everything negative more than i usually do...
Ari, the withdrawal is horrible, but for me it only lasted 1 week. i stopped every mes except sleeping pills otherwise i dont sleep. i quit those who made me gain weight and made life more bearable. i wanted to feel it all and hit rock bottom to make it easier to kill myself... im getting to it
i didnt get to sleep and im more grumpy than before. seeing everything negative more than i usually do...
Ari, the withdrawal is horrible, but for me it only lasted 1 week. i stopped every mes except sleeping pills otherwise i dont sleep. i quit those who made me gain weight and made life more bearable. i wanted to feel it all and hit rock bottom to make it easier to kill myself... im getting to it
I totally get what you’re saying. But if a medicine is helping life be more bearable couldn’t that maybe give you some hope that things are heading in a different direction? I’m curious because With me all meds I’ve tried make me worst but I’m on so many and don’t know where to start to get off them. Please don’t give up yet
on friday i have written a text to my psych just to know if she were there, just to feel some closeness and she hasnt answerd so the answer is NO.
i've got nobody close and this is making me sad and angry. she had told me she would always answer but she doesnt.
i'll see her last time this wednesday.
i quitting everything and everyone.
it will make it easier.
i've got nobody close and this is making me sad and angry. she had told me she would always answer but she doesnt.
i'll see her last time this wednesday.
i quitting everything and everyone.
it will make it easier.
A lot of people just don't understand that some of us just simply want to cease existing. Even if my current life circumstances changed dramatically for the better, I would still want to die. No amount of money, beautiful girlfriend, true friends etc would change my mind. I I00% NEED TO DIE. Life itself is the problem, life is pointless and meaningless. We are born into a dreadful world, often to dreadful parents, and are often born with physical or mental illnesses. We are brainwashed, and bullied in schools and churches and have our childhoods stolen in so many ways. We are then expected to get a job, get married, have kids, own a house, etc. We then have to spend around 50 years of our life working, only to end up dying anyway. I despise society and the experience of being a human in general. I have utterly hated it all from a very young age. I am absolutely going to end my suffering in the very near future. I have never been so sure about doing this in my entire life. I no longer have a fear of death. Even the fear of actually ending it all using certain methods is diminishing.
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