post your major complaint here

[FieryL]

looks like you are doing all the right things don't give up even if you don't become anxiety free i'm sure you'll eventually be at a comfortable level please keep trying and keep us posted we all care what happens to you

* I'm afraid that I wouldn't be able to do this in time. Right now the most probably scenario is by September I should be able to live and rent an apartment for several months straight, though parameters may change wildly... I have ideas how to earn it and where to get help, but nothing is fixed and guaranteed. What's important, helping organizations here are poor.. or rather, there are too many people in need of help, because of that the help is very scarced
* Anxiety yes, that's the thought. My problem is - that is what I suspect very very strongly, but is yet to confirm with not a diagnosis - is *not* in anxiety. If diagnosis will confirm it, I may be in a bit of bigger trouble, because I suspect, that I won't afford medication and without it all the other therapy gives very meh result. The problem is in executional dysfunction which is I greatly suspect, is really not rooted in any kind of anxiety, it's just kind of how my brain functions and fails to filter and prioritize tasks appropriately, especially important, but long-time-scaled ones. I lived with it all my life, but all my life I could adapt, various other conditions of my life gave me enough space to accomodate myself without needing to go to a doctor or look for therapy. I could procrastinate at work.. for many minutes, and sometimes hours and still manage do my job in time.

And right now... I feel that I'm on a timer.. that is doable certainly for a neurotypical person, but is hard for me. The chances are that I'll still survive. May be, if those suspections about my neurochemistry is right, I'd have an unexpected bonus which can even the chances in the influx of dopamine when the time will become really tight. But it's still risk, both miscalcucating what's happening inside me, and leaving all the problem solving to the last time in this risky situation as well.

 

[Shelly]

I can’t believe this clingy cat of mine who always come to me as if making sure I still love her as much, used to be a feral teenage cat back in 2020, I can still remember the pain of when she punched/clawed my hand when I first met and tried to feed her.

I knew from her expression that she was always conflicted how to feel about me, wanting to be petted as she watch me cradle my cats but also wanting to hate me for being similar-looking to humans who had harmed her.

 

[FieryL]

Just to add to the stuff that's bothering me greatly.. my day schedule is broken.. again, it happened before many times. And it's not insomnia, if I lay down, I'll be sleeping very soon. It's the preparation part.. trying to finish what I've planned for today, struggling with the need to postpone it to tomorrow, just need to unwind - usually after my bicycle rides, trying to retrain my legs for bicycle in hope to find delivery courier job - and what I call "the night program" - brush teeth and N times evening toilet (something OCDish/prostatitis/or some other neurohallucinations not sure) + sometimes shower and doing nails without waking up my neighbour....

The unwind part is the longest though, and it's not anxiety.. at least it's not like that. I'm not worrying about anything, I just feel *blocked* and need something to unblock it.. it takes time, often manageable, sometimes not...

 

[Lisa the Ferrociraptor]

The fact that people talk about certain demographics like drug addicts this way:

The fact that this kind of rhetoric is normalised.
Because people think it's their fault.
Because people think they're subhuman.
This is how nazis think.
Don't be a nazi.

 

[Lisa the Ferrociraptor]

Remarks like this also frustrate the hell out of me.

So many people out there don't understand at all how facilities like SICs work, how drug distribution works, or how addicts in general work.

Which is fine, you're not required to be informed on every topic on earth imo.
But then why are they piping up on the issue, like they know better than trained medical experts and researchers working in the field?
Why would you value your opinion on an issue like this, when you're completely clueless about the realities of said issue?

People are out here dying in triple digits every single day, on this one issue alone (we're talking thousands every day if we're also discussing every other issue that gets this treatment) because ignorant dipshits reckon they understand what we should be doing about a problem they've never encountered directly, or even read up about.

It's the same with mentally ill people.
It's the same with homeless people.
It's the same with trans people.
And so on, and so on.

 

[1964dodge]

* I'm afraid that I wouldn't be able to do this in time. Right now the most probably scenario is by September I should be able to live and rent an apartment for several months straight, though parameters may change wildly... I have ideas how to earn it and where to get help, but nothing is fixed and guaranteed. What's important, helping organizations here are poor.. or rather, there are too many people in need of help, because of that the help is very scarced
* Anxiety yes, that's the thought. My problem is - that is what I suspect very very strongly, but is yet to confirm with not a diagnosis - is *not* in anxiety. If diagnosis will confirm it, I may be in a bit of bigger trouble, because I suspect, that I won't afford medication and without it all the other therapy gives very meh result. The problem is in executional dysfunction which is I greatly suspect, is really not rooted in any kind of anxiety, it's just kind of how my brain functions and fails to filter and prioritize tasks appropriately, especially important, but long-time-scaled ones. I lived with it all my life, but all my life I could adapt, various other conditions of my life gave me enough space to accomodate myself without needing to go to a doctor or look for therapy. I could procrastinate at work.. for many minutes, and sometimes hours and still manage do my job in time.

And right now... I feel that I'm on a timer.. that is doable certainly for a neurotypical person, but is hard for me. The chances are that I'll still survive. May be, if those suspections about my neurochemistry is right, I'd have an unexpected bonus which can even the chances in the influx of dopamine when the time will become really tight. But it's still risk, both miscalcucating what's happening inside me, and leaving all the problem solving to the last time in this risky situation as well.

is it possible to work with a doctor for all the pertinent diagnoses you need. it's better to know for sure what your issues are so you can concentrate on those particular issues. also tell the doctor about financial issues with meds. walmart has a lot of $4 meds, maybe he can find a med that works and is cheap. either way keep trying. also try to look for ways to get help for medical expenses. i won't say it will be easy but fighting is better than giving up.

at one point because of all of my expensive meds i went into what was called a donut hole. that meant i had to pay out of pocket for a while. i couldn't afford over 3k a month so i stopped both of my insulin pens for over 1k each and i had 2. my doctor was upset so they found a cheap insulin pen for a month. then they found a permanent solution. my point is keep trying if one thing doesn't work try another and another. it sucks but you are strong enough

mike....

 

[Baywasp]

I can't need anything, and I just have to deal with shit

 

[Angie]

My major complaint currently is trying to figure out health care. I have issues, some minor, some major, and I just don't seem to be able to find the help I need to feel better.

Its so damn frustrating.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Is the problem with insurance or availability of doctors, or both? @Angie

 

[Angie]

Is the problem with insurance or availability of doctors, or both? @Angie

It is both and also trying to figure out WHICH doctor I need.

I changed insurance to United, and that has been a hassle to get all my providers switched over. Haven't even called the dentist yet.

I am beginning to question myself on how I feel.

It sucks.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Stay out of Washington State. They have a huge budget deficit. Because they can't stop spending money they don't have. Sound familiar. So now they are considering allowing property taxes to go up at the rate of inflation every year. Housing is already unaffordable here with homelessness being a huge problem. They are just going to make it worse and force the elderly and poor out of their current homes. I can't keep spending money I don't have. Why the hell should government be able to do so. NEVER MOVE TO WASHINGTON STATE!!!!

 

[puffymilk]

I just hate everything

 

[SillyOldBear]

My life sucks!

 

[1964dodge]

I just hate everything

 

[1964dodge]

My life sucks!

yes barb a good part of your life now sucks. life was so much easier in the past , i know it sucks getting old. at our age we have to enjoy the small things in life.

mike....

 

[Shelly]

Sunday, my cat chewed and broke off an onion leef, i managed to take it away from her.

Monday dawn she started puking about two times, in the morning she was still eating and drinking although not as much as she usually does. In the afternoon after I got back from school i noticed she hasn’t moved from her bed, she didn’t eat or drink anything, she just slept.

This morning of Tuesday and it’s the same thing for her, and now 10am we’re at the vet.

 

[KM76710]

Sunday, my cat chewed and broke off an onion leef, i managed to take it away from her.

Monday dawn she started puking about two times, in the morning she was still eating and drinking although not as much as she usually does. In the afternoon after I got back from school i noticed she hasn’t moved from her bed, she didn’t eat or drink anything, she just slept.

This morning of Tuesday and it’s the same thing for her, and now 10am we’re at the vet.

I hope that you cat will be fine and back to herself soon.

 

[1964dodge]

Sunday, my cat chewed and broke off an onion leef, i managed to take it away from her.

Monday dawn she started puking about two times, in the morning she was still eating and drinking although not as much as she usually does. In the afternoon after I got back from school i noticed she hasn’t moved from her bed, she didn’t eat or drink anything, she just slept.

This morning of Tuesday and it’s the same thing for her, and now 10am we’re at the vet.

i hope she's ok

mike....

 

[Shelly]

I pray that He would just take my life away than put me through law school while dealing with sick cats.

I’m really considering ending things just so all the hardship would stop already

 

[Shelly]

Mama (my 1st cat) and Lily (my 6th cat) had to be left for confinement in the vet, both tested positive for fcov, it is also possible all my other 4 cats are also positive for fcov.

I am defeated. They are my family and I possible could lose them, all of them, there is no cure/vaccine for fcov, I had asked my mother for financial help and she has been scolding me, I don’t know how we’ll get through this or all my cats specially Mama and Lily could possibly die.

Lily has it the worst because her organs are also inflamed and if she survives this, she’ll most likely have ckd which will involve lots of medicine and her bowels are already not in good shape.

I just want them to feel loved, wanted, and cared for, I dont why this is happening, what i did wrong, i dont want them to die, they’re my family. I wish i was the one sick instead, even when I’m sick I’ll take care of them but not the way around.