I messaged my primary late last night so sge could get my message early this morning. (Hell I may actually have messaged her long before night time)
So for whatever reason she didn't check her messages first thing this morning like she usually does (or should). I had explained the severity of my back pain and the fact that I have been having constant numbness that keeps coming and going and tingling that is radiating into my buttocks and has progressed to my groin area. I can't f*cking walk, sit or stand for more than a minute at a time without it affecting my ability to breathe, increasing my blood pressure more, and all of my muscles feeling like I've been st*bbed by a pitchfork and twisted up like spaghetti until it looks like I am crumbled up like a piece of trash. I have to lay down completely and even then I'm still in pain.
I am in SO MUCH PAIN.
By the time my doctor finally sent me in a steroid to try and help any flare up and inflammation it was already after 1 or 2pm. And my damn pharmacy I switched to had been doing really good but for whatever reason today they didn't give a crap. They took forever to get my meds ready. Mom let my sister practice driving so we went to the store got a few things and then stopped for gas. But the pharmacy still didn't have things ready. We get home they finally message saying my meds are ready to pick up now.
Oh that's just great, because mom isn't going to go get them even if it is only a few minutes drive away. Mom isn't going to care at all because it isnt for her. She didn't even bothering asking me if I was okay when my sister and I got back in the car and I was the one pulling out my inhaler and I was the one grunting and groaning and struggling to get in because of my back.
I haven't been this upset or crying so hard in a while and it is mainly because of the physical pain I am in.