I’m Mr. Bauta, a writing and TTRPG nerd. I ironically found SF through Scribd (a vast library app) in a book about suicide methods. The scanners put a page with varying links and resources with this site being one of them, so I figured I’d give this a shot after snooping around a bit.
If you’re wondering about my circumstance, it’s in my first post which has more detail. It effectively summarizes that, if being a loner and joke is going to be the consistency, why bother living that tortuous life? At least for now, I have friends that cushion things. I guess I just “survive” for now since I’m living four years past my intended deadline, dreading if I’ll be right about my pathetic future.
This may be just one of few posts I make since I really am just a recluse since I struggle socializing with others. It may just be that I’ve been in a fair amount of monotonous or shallow friendships that I overthink how it optimally could be. Either way, I like proving my anxieties wrong and perhaps I’ll be a regular should I work up the courage.
If you’re wondering about my circumstance, it’s in my first post which has more detail. It effectively summarizes that, if being a loner and joke is going to be the consistency, why bother living that tortuous life? At least for now, I have friends that cushion things. I guess I just “survive” for now since I’m living four years past my intended deadline, dreading if I’ll be right about my pathetic future.
This may be just one of few posts I make since I really am just a recluse since I struggle socializing with others. It may just be that I’ve been in a fair amount of monotonous or shallow friendships that I overthink how it optimally could be. Either way, I like proving my anxieties wrong and perhaps I’ll be a regular should I work up the courage.
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