I've had a history of low poor since my teens. I am now in my late forties and been on medication for a long time. I've seen a few psychiatrists over the years and have had a course of CBT over 16 sessions. Had moved home/ work about a year ago and as things in the job were not working out, I fell in a major depressive spell and was suicidal and starting making plans. Within my relationship they thought all the reasons I was feeling the way of was, was to do with them and other non true things. Then disaster struck and the relationship broke down, and they cut me off.
I ended up in a major crisis and went to see the crisis team, where after 15 mins, mostly of me crying, was given a personality disorder diagnosis. I do not mine having this diagnosis, but I disagreed that they could make a diagnosis over 15 mins. They also lied and said in the letter, the appointment was over 1 hour and that they gave me leaflets. I actually asked for a leaflet and they couldnt answer any questions about what type of personality disorder I had etc.
I saw another psychiatrist through my work, who thought maybe a personality disorder or maybe autism. I did a load of autism tests online and im scoring high. BUT, I have had a private councillor for over 7 years, now they are not clinically trained in mental health conditions but they feel I have a lot of trauma from my childhood which has given me maladaptive schemas.
I have an appointment with another psychiatrist where they are going to explore personality disorder and autism. I have a lot of emotions flying through my head on this. When the relationship was breaking down, the missing person thought and said I was a narcissist and they had done a lot of research on this. I disagreed with this and they said, a narcissist would disagree. So on the one hand, I have this voice in my head saying, your just wanting an autism diagnosis rather than a personality disorder diagnosis and if I did get a autism diagnosis the missing person isnt going to believe this anyway. Which is mad for me to think as they are not communicating with me anyway.
However, I am trying to control the appointment, as I am wanting a fair assessment, so I will go prepared. I am not going to try and steer the appointment one way or another but I do want to try and balance the information, so they can make a fair assessment. The crisis appointment was a nightmare, where I was just wanting some help and came out with a label and no help.
What's the best way to prepare for this appointment? Im going to take some of the test scores from the autism tests and just try and get my history in order in my head. Any thoughts?
I ended up in a major crisis and went to see the crisis team, where after 15 mins, mostly of me crying, was given a personality disorder diagnosis. I do not mine having this diagnosis, but I disagreed that they could make a diagnosis over 15 mins. They also lied and said in the letter, the appointment was over 1 hour and that they gave me leaflets. I actually asked for a leaflet and they couldnt answer any questions about what type of personality disorder I had etc.
I saw another psychiatrist through my work, who thought maybe a personality disorder or maybe autism. I did a load of autism tests online and im scoring high. BUT, I have had a private councillor for over 7 years, now they are not clinically trained in mental health conditions but they feel I have a lot of trauma from my childhood which has given me maladaptive schemas.
I have an appointment with another psychiatrist where they are going to explore personality disorder and autism. I have a lot of emotions flying through my head on this. When the relationship was breaking down, the missing person thought and said I was a narcissist and they had done a lot of research on this. I disagreed with this and they said, a narcissist would disagree. So on the one hand, I have this voice in my head saying, your just wanting an autism diagnosis rather than a personality disorder diagnosis and if I did get a autism diagnosis the missing person isnt going to believe this anyway. Which is mad for me to think as they are not communicating with me anyway.
However, I am trying to control the appointment, as I am wanting a fair assessment, so I will go prepared. I am not going to try and steer the appointment one way or another but I do want to try and balance the information, so they can make a fair assessment. The crisis appointment was a nightmare, where I was just wanting some help and came out with a label and no help.
What's the best way to prepare for this appointment? Im going to take some of the test scores from the autism tests and just try and get my history in order in my head. Any thoughts?
