It all started at the beginning of 2018. Everything was going great, i was doing well in class. My intelligence managed to attract the people in my class but i was not the type to be in a relationship. I was bullied in my childhood and primary school days, so i was surprised that people wanted to be my friend. I enjoyed my single life and was obsessed with physics and the mysteries of the Universe, numerology and astrology. The previous year i lost 10kgs and studied hard to increase my worth and i was glad i managed to change my life. One day, i noticed there was a guy in my class who admired me, he was the head prefect of our school. He showed me that he liked me, he would always fine ways to see me, waited for me after class to say hi. I always hear him talk to his friends about me about how i was really smart. Unfortunately once i saw him try to get close to me, i pushed him away because i was a afraid of falling in love with me. He was the head prefect of our school and because of my earlier days of getting bullied, my experiences made me feel as if i wasn't likeable and that i was going to get rejected soon. So, i avoided him.
The next day, i saw him really sad. He was isolated himself in the corner of the class and he looked as if he was gonna cry. Only then, i believed that he genuinely had interest in me. One that same day i read my numerology and it mentioned that someone i meet this year would end up as a close friend or even a life partner for the rest of my life. That message was a sign for me to give this relationship a chance.
The next day, i apologised and said hi to him and he told me the same. Again the same thing he would occur, he would find ways to see me and i hear him talking yo his friends about me. Unfortunately, The relationship only stayed that way for a long time. I did send messages to him that he would read and reply but he never dared talk to me face to face. However i could always feel what he was thinking about and our communications mostly felt telepathic. It was already, June and he still hasn't confessed his feelings or had any real conversations with me. My insecurity started to kick in and i was pushing him away again. This time he was fed up with me. I was also annoyed with him because he hasn't even made any effort to tell me his feelings and i didn't know why. Then i had this strong feeling inside of me that there was a third party involved. I haven't seen anyone with him but i just felt as is something wasn't right. Eversince then, my intuition was kicking up constantly, the signs i was seeing, there was a video that caught my attention, it was him being close with another girl and the girl was telling him she loved him. I felt very hurt. He haven't told me anything about it, the next day he acted as if everything was fine between us. He didn't know why i was upset with him. He doesn't know that i found out about this third party. I heard him asking his friends wondering why i was mad at him.
The next day, i was on my way to the library when i saw the both of them laughing by the stairs. I just walked passed them pretending that i didn't know what was going on. Later at the science, lab he was still showing me that he had interest in me, but this time i was done, i purposely talked to my friend really loud and mentioned the girls name usually loud in class that he managed to hear. The next thing i saw was his true colors, it was time for his duty so he walked out of class and spoke to his friend in an usually loud voice. I knew he was raising his voiced at me.
It was time for break and i knew he was purposely going to make me jealous by talking to her infront of my face. As soon as i confirmed my intuition i was really heartbroken. The later days, i began to see signs from the Universe. Repeating numbers everywhere. I recall seeing the number 44, 7 times that day. It would appear on my phone when i switched it on, the question number that i was doing, my digital clock, the number on the signboard and more. I was so upset and i couldn't even figure out why i was so attracted to him even if we rarely even talked. The folowing days of school, he still showed interest in me. I heard him tell his friends in class that he liked me more than the other girl. Despite all of that i was still heartbroken. I also realised that the time i'm thinking about him, he actually comes online on my whatsapp. All those repeating number made me feel like i was hallucinating. 1 night, i was studying late because my exams were coming near. I couldn't concentrate anymore, my heart felt very painful. I didn't know that a heartbreak would bring about chest pains, but it did. I cried that night. I decided to watch Youtube in an attempt to cheer myself up. The moment i switched Youtube, there was a tarot pick a card reading appreared. Something that i didn't believe in at first but somehow felt drawned to click on it. (Theres much more i'll update soon)
The next day, i saw him really sad. He was isolated himself in the corner of the class and he looked as if he was gonna cry. Only then, i believed that he genuinely had interest in me. One that same day i read my numerology and it mentioned that someone i meet this year would end up as a close friend or even a life partner for the rest of my life. That message was a sign for me to give this relationship a chance.
The next day, i apologised and said hi to him and he told me the same. Again the same thing he would occur, he would find ways to see me and i hear him talking yo his friends about me. Unfortunately, The relationship only stayed that way for a long time. I did send messages to him that he would read and reply but he never dared talk to me face to face. However i could always feel what he was thinking about and our communications mostly felt telepathic. It was already, June and he still hasn't confessed his feelings or had any real conversations with me. My insecurity started to kick in and i was pushing him away again. This time he was fed up with me. I was also annoyed with him because he hasn't even made any effort to tell me his feelings and i didn't know why. Then i had this strong feeling inside of me that there was a third party involved. I haven't seen anyone with him but i just felt as is something wasn't right. Eversince then, my intuition was kicking up constantly, the signs i was seeing, there was a video that caught my attention, it was him being close with another girl and the girl was telling him she loved him. I felt very hurt. He haven't told me anything about it, the next day he acted as if everything was fine between us. He didn't know why i was upset with him. He doesn't know that i found out about this third party. I heard him asking his friends wondering why i was mad at him.
The next day, i was on my way to the library when i saw the both of them laughing by the stairs. I just walked passed them pretending that i didn't know what was going on. Later at the science, lab he was still showing me that he had interest in me, but this time i was done, i purposely talked to my friend really loud and mentioned the girls name usually loud in class that he managed to hear. The next thing i saw was his true colors, it was time for his duty so he walked out of class and spoke to his friend in an usually loud voice. I knew he was raising his voiced at me.
It was time for break and i knew he was purposely going to make me jealous by talking to her infront of my face. As soon as i confirmed my intuition i was really heartbroken. The later days, i began to see signs from the Universe. Repeating numbers everywhere. I recall seeing the number 44, 7 times that day. It would appear on my phone when i switched it on, the question number that i was doing, my digital clock, the number on the signboard and more. I was so upset and i couldn't even figure out why i was so attracted to him even if we rarely even talked. The folowing days of school, he still showed interest in me. I heard him tell his friends in class that he liked me more than the other girl. Despite all of that i was still heartbroken. I also realised that the time i'm thinking about him, he actually comes online on my whatsapp. All those repeating number made me feel like i was hallucinating. 1 night, i was studying late because my exams were coming near. I couldn't concentrate anymore, my heart felt very painful. I didn't know that a heartbreak would bring about chest pains, but it did. I cried that night. I decided to watch Youtube in an attempt to cheer myself up. The moment i switched Youtube, there was a tarot pick a card reading appreared. Something that i didn't believe in at first but somehow felt drawned to click on it. (Theres much more i'll update soon)