Hello, sorta an odd question to everyone, but I am somewhat curious as to how one goes in and gets treatment/help for depression, what in all goes on for the diagnosis, and how much it costs. I don't have much money to spare, and have no health insurance (live in the US) but I am reasonably secure as long as treatment and such doesnt cost $1K or more. I have been suicidal and depressed for years, and then came to this site, talked to people, somehow got my life turned around, and was fine, but somehow, some reason, I crashed again and am back to thinking of suicide. I am thinking it might be biological or something because theres nothing I can think of that could have caused it. I should be still happy. Someone suggested the sessional disorder to me (SAD) and I looked that up and clinical depression, and bipolar disorder, and parts of them, especially the longterm depression i can definately relate to. So I guess what I am wondering is, if I think there is something physically wrong with me, what do I do? Do i simply walk in to a hospital and say " I want to kill myself? why". I don't think i do, because being suicidal is litterally illegal in some states, and that will just wind me up in jail and ruin my life. So what do I do to seek help without being called crazy and winding up in a mental hospital or jail? Sorry my post is really lengthy and disorganized, I am tired and have a headache and am tired of feeling depressed. Any and all advice is appriciated though, ty.